Hi!
Here is the short version of my long story. I promise I have only included the essentials.
You wouldn’t know it by looking at me, but I have always been a sun baby. I was a very lucky kid. I had a few years with a stay-at-home mom who grew us fresh fruits and vegetables in our huge garden. (We even had a pumpkin patch!) I learned to appreciate being outside, I loved eating things that were grown right in front of me (well most things, I have a love-hate relationship with a variety of vegetables), and I especially loved the accomplished feeling of creating (or helping to create) real, natural things from scratch. These things of course changed a bit, along with the rest of my life. Basically, the quote “life happens” has had quite an existential meaning for me.
I spent the rest of my years in my hometown often having home cooked meals and family dinners, but the content often centered around the most affordable, quick, options. We hit all of the ‘food groups’ yes, but their origin was hardly even an afterthought. Our pantry had its fair share of processed foods, our medicine cabinets contained your basic cosmetics-aisle finds, and as you can imagine…well my house looked like pretty much every other house on the block.
I happened to also look like everyone else on my block. I had very little exposure to the world going on outside of my safe-haven. I never wondered if the other kids at school ever worried about where their next meals would come from. I never questioned my ability to go to a doctor at any time for any thing. I never questioned some of the things that came out of people’s mouths. It never occurred to me that there was much more to life than everything I already knew about.
These are things I never gave a lot of thought to until one day, literally overnight, I got the courage to go away to college. As a physiology major, I learned all about our body’s systems, all about chemicals and biological compounds, and I begin to learn about how they all co exist. As a Spanish minor I started to realize how small the world I knew about really was. Still, I considered myself healthy, smart. I was still fairly content with my slowly expanding world. Four years later when I moved to Philadelphia to pursue my Masters in Public Health however, the way I looked at the things begin to change exponentially.
Let me tell you: Ignorance IS bliss. Learning how things work in the wide world of health today has been more than eye opening. Living in one of the most diverse cities, seeing poverty and inequality everyday; it changes things. From learning what it really means to be “privileged” to what truly defines institutional racism, my world rapidly began to expand. I learned what kind of false labeling goes unregulated on products I used everyday, to what kind of epidemic-level health issues exist in certain communities just because of what is in the air. I learned what goes on in the world, while my sleepy hometown stays sheltered between some very popular mountains.
*If I have learned nothing else; it is that you cannot UNLEARN these kinds of things.*
So today, as I type to you, I am a busy medical student living in yet another city—trying to get back to my natural roots, become a doctor, be a good citizen and person, and make a difference. My education has allowed me to make healthy changes in my life in many different areas, and it has allowed me to be painfully aware of what is actually going on in the world around me. Maybe its because my mom planted a time sensitive seed in me when I was tiny, maybe its the OCD kicking in, but I want to make things better in my life and in the lives of those around me. Nothing good comes from people living in the dark, even if it might feel safer. So this is where I start.
Maybe I will never narrow down my passions to one topic in public health or medicine, maybe I will always bounce around to what sparks my passion on any given day, maybe everything will always feel so overwhelming and important to me. As I sift through my education, and the last half of my twenties, I hope what I have to share helps inspire you to cultivate your understanding and contribute to your own world… and I hope it grows a little bigger than it was before.
Happy Reading!
Courtney
B.S.H.S, MPH